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December 14, 2011 in mommy stuff

When I started up this blog again earlier this year in July, I had promised myself that I would keep it going.  But what happened?  I found out in September my sister’s breast cancer had spread to several major organs.  To say the least, I was everything you can imagine: devastated, sad, in disbelief, numb.  I was frozen for awhile there and I couldn’t do anything productive because all I could think of was my sister, her husband, and her two young boys, 5 and 2. Writing this blog just seemed so frivilous in the big scheme of things. I [...]

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dreams: shattered by motherhood?

September 14, 2011 in mommy stuff

I never dreamed about being a mother when I was younger. I didn’t even get the baby bug until my early thirties as I noted in my previous post. Before then, I had dreams about being financially successful, a business owner, a traveler, and a photographer, just to name a few. I was definitely on the road to these dreams before I became a mom but now motherhood has taken these dreams to the back burner. You see, by the time I finally dreamed about being a mother, it pretty much consumed me.  It was all I could think and [...]

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motherhood: where’s “me” in all of this?

September 7, 2011 in mommy stuff

Motherhood has certainly become one of my greatest achievements so far yet it has been one of the biggest challenges. Being a mother is rewarding in so many ways but I must say there are days when I question if I’m the right person for the job.  You know how some women always wanted to be a mother and always knew they wanted children? Well, I’m not one of those women and being a mom has definitely not come easy for me. I got the “I want a baby” bug when I hit my early 30′s and it was weird [...]

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