My second miscarriage also happened to be my second pregnancy.  We tried right away after going through the first miscarriage because we wanted to have a baby so badly.  However, as you can see, that doesn’t work either.

Because of the first miscarriage, my doctor got me in for an ultrasound quite early at 6 weeks.  I was so nervous about it and anxious going into this scan.  My husband actually didn’t even go with me this time because we figured there’s no way they can see anything yet because it’s so early.  This time I requested to go to another ultrasound center because the last one I didn’t trust because they did not use the internal probe to do the ultrasound when they couldn’t see it externally.  I laid there all nervous and watched the technician as she started to perform the ultrasound from the outside of my belly.  I couldn’t see the screen and didn’t want to second guess so I waited until she said something to me.  She did some measurements and then wanted to do an internal scan.  This made me really nervous!  ”What?!  She couldn’t see anything?!” I thought.

Then she did the internal scan and finally turned to me and says, “See this?” as she pointed at the monitor.  It was a heartbeat!!  It was a heartbeat!!  I couldn’t believe it my eyes!!  It was a heartbeat!!  WOW!  I thought to myself, I was sooooo HAPPY!  The embryo didn’t measure 6 weeks, however, it only measured about 5 weeks or so, but I didn’t care, I saw a heartbeat and went on  my way to tell my hubby all about it!

My doctor scheduled me a second ultrasound to ensure the embryo was growing properly.  I was so happy to be able to see our little baby again so quickly and, of course this time, my husband came too.  The ultrasound went about like usual with the technician making her measurements first before even letting my husband in (he always hated this part!).  Then, she made some more measurements and more measurements.  Then, she called a doctor to come in the room… I got really nervous!  The doctor examined the monitor and my heart dropped.  I knew what they were about to tell me.  I wanted my husband in the room right away!  The doctor then tells us that they do not see a heartbeat.  I’m thinking, WHAT?!  HOW could that be?  There was a heartbeat just a few weeks ago!  The embryo did grow from the last ultrasound but somehow it couldn’t grow anymore.  It measured 7.5weeks when it should have been at 9 weeks.

We were devastated.  Again?!  We were not ready for this because we already went through one and we thought there’s no way another one could happen.  We had even started telling people early because we thought this one was a sure thing.  Wow, nothing’s for sure in life, we learned.

My doctor and I both agreed I should get a D&C procedure done this time so we can get the embryo examined to see what happened.  The Dilation and Curettage procedure is an in-and-out procedure done at the hospital, for more information on this, please visit this article I found:

http://www.americanpregnancy.org/pregnancycomplications/dandc.html

After the procedure, I woke up in recovery and my belly felt very bloated/swollen and, yes, a bit painful (like a really bad period).  The worse thing (for me) was that when I woke, I heard a nurse say to the lady next to me, “oh your twins are doing just fine.”  This was the moment I realized another baby was gone and I started tearing up for the first time with this miscarriage. When we got the results back from the examination of the embryo, they found out that the chromosome was inverted… meaning, something went wrong with the growth of the DNA… meaning, do not blame yourself, I did nothing wrong. We also found out it was a girl.

Ultimately, we were not discouraged.  We took a few months off from trying for a baby, went to SPAIN (barcelona, madrid, and valencia), and then tried again.

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